Admitting Mistakes, Asking for An Apology, Forgiving, Forgetting

Admitting mistakes is hard.

But asking for an apology is 100x harder than admitting mistakes.

And forgiving is 100x harder than asking for an apology.

And forgetting is 100x harder than forgiving. You do the math.

As a human, we're only one blink away from making mistakes, I'm sure it's not always intentional, but that's something undeniable. It's just there, normal. That's what makes us "human" since we're perfectly imperfect. Please do remember that.

But, I think not everyone's pleased to admit their mistakes. Some people might deny, some people might look for excuses, some people might blame others, or even some people might just ignore the facts. Pretty sure they've gotten their own reasons, such as being afraid to be looked down on, looking like a fool, etc etc. I know it's hard, but it really is an important step to keep us grounded, to remind us that we're possibly making mistakes.

Next, asking for an apology. This is the next level after admitting mistakes, of course, the harder one. Asking for an apology could be hard when we have that high pride, that people didn't want to be looked weak and sinful. But guess what, asking for an apology won't bring you down, it just simply asking people whom you did wrong to forgive. Yes, it is as simple as that, it's just not easy.

Forgiving is a whole new level, harder than asking for an apology. Even after years, time doesn't heal the wound, it just helps us get used to the pain, meanwhile, the pain stays there. So, how to forgive? Mmm, to be honest, I don't know, I am still trying to figure it out as well. All I know is that we don't have the right to do justice for anyone else, but once again forgiving is not an easy task to be done, not as easy as it sounds. It's not a piece of cake for everyone. We do know that doing wrong is humane, but sometimes, the scars are just too deep to be healed by "sorry, please forgive me". And guess what, what's the hardest about forgiving? It's forgiving your own self, your past, your imperfect sides that always follow you around. I wish everyone can figure out how to forgive somehow.

Last, the highest level is to forget. We can say we've forgiven the wrong ones, yet, forgetting things is another thing. The sudden attack of thoughts that bring us to the old scenes where we experienced the pain is just so painful sometimes, the pain stays, it doesn't go anywhere. As much as we try to ignore it, forgetting pains is an ability everyone could ever ask for. Maybe, lots of people haven't forgiven and forgotten, and neither have I. I don't know, maybe we need another span of time, to forget little by little to completely forget the pains. And if we really can't forget, I hope it can be less painful as time goes by, as we get used. 

I hope we all can find peace after admitting mistakes, asking for an apology, forgiving, and forgetting. I know it takes time, a long long time. However, don't rush, just do one at a time. I'm cheering for everyone who is currently working on it. Last but not least, I hope I can implement what I just jot down. Well, it's one of the hardest lifetime homework. I am just acting like a pro while actually, I am not.